Welcome...Love

I just moved into my new house. I never thought I would be in a place this satisfying, and fortunately I'm not talking about the location, but my mental status. Im finally happy, with me, those around me, and life overall. I have back lapses where I think of the past and those who were a part of it, but I realize I had to go through that turmoil to be where I am today. I never thought I would be able to do it, especially not on my own, but I have. My home is beautiful, my boys are beautiful, my life is beautiful, and I am beautiful. I went through what I went through not because I'm a bad person, or that individual was a bad person, but because I had to realize what was right and what was not. If I ever see them in passing, I'll be sure to thank them, because even though once upon a time I was unhappy with the way my life was, losing certain people and material things, made me realize just how great life can be. Good Day to all. Bre =)

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im done

Doing Whats Best

Sometimes doing whats best is the hardest thing to do. I can't even begin to express myself.... Being hurt....forgiving someone and moving on never gets any easier.

Love's True Value....

Love to some it seems like a simple word, but to someone whose been hurt by that very thing, it is so much more. I have lived myself and learned this very fact and gone through what some would call life changing things, that makes one want to avoid the very thing that we live to find. But the biggest lesson to be learned is there are some things in life you can't run from. Death, your fears, and love. Now everyones list varies but these are the main things that stick out in my mind that over time I have come to terms with. When I was young I feared death, but now it is something I accept that is just apart of living. Just as my fears of death, which I realized is something I cant run from no matter how far I go, it will still meet me there. And last love. I have loved foolishly as many have and been broken, which taught me some things, but not enough to teach me to obviously not make the same mistake again. It took for my pride to be hurt for me to learn not to be so free giving with my heart. But the reaction of someone whose been hurt or whose heart has been damaged is to retract from everyone, show absolutely no emotion, and refuse to show affection. But as I said there are some things you cant run from. I don't know maybe I'll exxagerate later.

im rite at the edge of hurt and disbelief looking over at acceptance and contentment....I wish some one would just push me already so I can get this over with.

It's crazy....

It's crazy how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces.....more like stupid if you ask me.

truth is....

I've been let down so many times; being hurt doesn't phase me any more.
Take a number, whose next.

How....Im.....Feeling

....Fake promises...are much like fake names, you painted a picture for me, but there was no frame,
You made my future look bright, And I believed every word, I went to sleep on the clouds and woke up in the dirt,
And now I'm without shelter, and the wind is blowing, you said you'd be there for me when the tough got going,
Said if weapons draw, you'd stand in front of me, whenever I felt trapped said you be there to set me free

thought you were my hero...but it turns out....you're a no show........

Happy New Year

Happy New Year!!

Yay-__-. I've gotten to the point where I don't know what the cheer is all about anymore. I've gone from yay to why. I don't see any purpose anymore... I need to get out of this slump.

If only.....

If I could give you one thing in life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes, only then would you truly understand

Pride

I have seen many movies, I have known a many men, but most of my knowledge about Pride comes from my personal interaction with such characteristic. The love of one's own excellence is one way that it has been subscribed. In a way I agree with this and in other situations, I am able to disagree. Someone can have positive pride that has a positive affect on themselves as well as others, and then there is a sense of pride that can cause harm to ones relations as well as eventually to themselves. Pride wont allow you to ask for help, admit your mistakes, or truly love. Some people connect pride to pain, using pride as shield, protecting yourself from a hurt that was experienced in your past. I don't know though, that's just my opinion.

Today is one of my favorite peoples birthdays, one of my best friends, my life partner. Words can't express the gratitude and love I have for you. You truly may never know how much I adore and appreciate you, but on your day I want to wish you a very happy and memorable birthday with all the love and wholeness I have in me. God Bless us and our family. I love You

Mental Programming

It may not be believed but we are mentally programmed by the things we go through. They change us they alter or thoughts and make us dislike and like certain things as well as attract us to certain ways and lifestyles. Say for instance people, why are we attracted to particular types of people. Why do we have preferences. What generates ones attraction differently than the next person. How one male may be attracted to women of a lighter skin tone that are heavy set while his identical twin might prefer the exact opposite. hmmm....

Quote of the moment

Life has the name of life, but in reality it is death.

Question....

If a man who cannot count finds a four-leaf clover, is he lucky? 

psych

Everyone has different ways of dealing with situations that happen in their life. Im speaking on love in this blog. From every aspect i can i am attempting to understand ones mindset on love and their actions towards it.


Not knowing how to accept love.

Doing things to hurt someone you love just to push them to the limit.

highly emotional individual/male
no father figure/ no parental relationship/yet protective
indecisive <--- love
hides feelngs behind humor
hurt retreat into a silent spell
thoughts n secrets off limits
not selfish yet not impulsive
insecurity depression later physical weakness
prone to negative thoughts

Quote of the moment...

Some people always want to help others. Just so that they can feel better than they really are.


When I ran across this quote I found this to be so true, I know myself from personal experience. I grew up around a person who was very selfish, possessive amongst other things. The type of person whom only felt superior if they made others feel unequal. This type of treatment went on for years, and as the years past their ways became worst. They became verbally and physically abusive to their family members, as well as turned to substance abuse to aid their ways. Before long their family fail apart and the individual was left living a life alone, separated from everyone because everyone had become a victim of their harsh words and selfish attitude in some way. It took time but with it, the individual noticed the wrongs of their ways. In this world you'll get nowhere alone. So they began giving, sharing, offering not to everyone but individuals whom they felt they'd truly wronged. In reality you can give someone anything off the shelf, but love is not sitting next to it. Once you have truly wronged someone, they may forgive you if that is their choice, but many of things they will not forget. In other words charity is only truly accepted as charity, when nothing is linked to it. So when giving, give in good deed, good heart as an offer of sincere caring, expecting nothing in return, only then is it truly cherished.

Quote of the moment...

"Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, small minds discuss people." ~ Eleanor Roosevelt

It speaks for itself.

This Feeling....

The feeling in my chest is one that I cant explain. I keep grabbing it but its not exactly where my heart is, but its near it. I feel my palms perspiring, and my breaths are becoming heavy. I wanna hit send so bad because I wanna know the response but at the same time I don't. Eventually I will but when, and when I do will I wanna see, because what I want may not be what is said. Is this even worth it. And then I remember "It is better to know than wonder forever"....deep breath.....

Quote of the moment...

'When you want something, concentrate only on that: no one will ever hit a target they cannot see.'-Paul Coelho